So, it's been a really busy couple of weeks!
We had an amazing time in Thailand but it seems so long ago now...

Christmas was great, I missed seeing my sisters but loved having Mark there so that was really nice.

Now I am working on my own business as well as working in the Major Project dept of the National Media museum. I'm enjoying it but it's hard doing both things! Doesn't leave much time for anything else!

I started the new Wexer competition in January as well, I wasn't able to finish the last one due to so many reasons (never explain, never complain) but really think I can give this one my best shot!

It's hard finding time to fit exercise in but when I can just pick the type of thing I want to do and how long I have to do it, it really helps! Means I'm not stuck doing cardio when I could really do with chilling out with some yoga and visa-versa!

Anyway, this is just a small post with a quick update. Hope to get chance to write more over the next few weeks!

Current Mood: hopeful

Another strange week almost done. Been working around 12/15 hours a day and not sleeping very well. Just one week left though on this project which is a blessing and also a nightmare as I have so much to get done!

It was my close friend's leaving do last night, I felt a bit rubbish as I got there really late (partly because I working up to the wire and then the train there was cancelled), wasn't drinking and then left at around 12:30am. I love her to pieces but I had to get home and get some sleep so I could work today. She got so upset when I left, granted mostly because she'd had a lot of sambuca but still... I was trying to explain that I'll probably see her more with her moving away than we do at the moment but I think it had just hit her that she was leaving tbh.

Went to the doctor the other day again. That was time well spent! Or not!!
Told her what I was eating, etc and how I am still finding it difficult to lose weight and do you know what her answer was? "Well, you're doing everything right, maybe you'll just have to accept that you can't lose weight" Riiiight... Managed to get her to check my thyroid again as two of my sisters and my mum have underactive thyroids and, although it's unlikely that that is my problem, it's still something to check.

Admittedly, it's been difficult to get any kind of exercise in this week, which is bad because it helps me feel better. Not getting any done is probably part of the reason I am so down at the moment, my LJ posts look like something from EMO weekly! I thought that I could get up at 6am and do something for 40mins, get some breakfast and a shower and then start work for about 7am, but then thought that if I can get up at 6am I should just start working. That's how my brain has been recently. I feel guilty for going and getting food, for sleeping, I mean ffs I lay there in bed thinking "I'm not asleep, I could be working... should I get up?"
Right now, writing this, even though I'm waiting for my mouse to charge up, I feel bad that I'm not working. Panicked that I'm wasting time and yet I can't actually do anything until my mouse is charged.

Right, there should be enough juice in my mouse to keep me going until I have to eat something so I will stop my moaning :)

Oooo on a plus note, I have a meeting with the people from the BeFund on Thursday! Need to convince them that giving me a business loan is a good idea! Hints and suggestions to help my cause on a postcard to the usual address please :D

Current Mood: rushed

So, work is still not going well, the end of September is looming and all I can think about is dancing! I really want to start latin dance classes but have yet to find somewhere near here that does a few different dances, not just salsa! Productive eh! Lol.

On a positive note (if I get all this work finished) then I will have some more cash after the 1st November and so when we go away we're going to go on an elephant trek (its super cheap! :-D)! I'm so glad most of that trip is paid for, otherwise I would be in a state of panic roundabout now!

Well, I am in a state of panic but it's nothing to do with elephants!

Not too sure what I'm going to do about this work...

Better get back to it!

Just a quick entry...

Hectic day today! Have 2 pieces of work that I need to get done and not enough time to do either of them. Am so glad for the work but have a feeling I wont get much sleep this weekend.
I need to get both of them done soon so I can get the (aforementioned) money, I am so far over my overdraft it's actually quite comical and now my other half is in his as well and I feel it's my fault. Everyone keeps telling me that the first year of self employment is always hard and bad on the finances but I still hoped I would miraculously not go down the same road everyone else has before me lol.

I need to get my business plan done too so I can ask for the business loan and also at least get a milestone payment for one of my bits of work before the end of the month or I'm pretty screwed. Good job I don't have too much planned for the coming weeks! :-)

I didn't do any training yesterday due to working all day and most of the evening. Want to do some today but it will depend on how much I get done. I keep thinking I can spare 40 mins to do something because I know it will help me clear my head! But then I see my task list and panic lol.

On a lighter note, my new espresso machine (that I got with my Debenhams vouchers) is getting a lot of use!

Right, back to it!

Current Mood: scared

Well, yesterday was a pig of a day! My lovely other half kept getting pretty pap news,
1 - He was told he couldn't have any funding for his game because they are funding a different game in the same area and it would be a conflict of interest, not just that but they can't give him any more help at all.
2 - He got told that the Uni are again trying to close down the MMA club, probably the fault of the narrow-minded person who has been trying to shut it down for the last two years and doesn't even work there anymore but won't leave !!! They're not giving them all the budget that they said they would and said they will have to train in the Uni studio, which doesn't have any of the right equipment. He asked ages ago to be told if this may be the case so that he could try and do some fund raising but they said it would all be fine. Now it appears someone somewhere lied. They also tried to move the 2nd session in the week to a Friday night 8-10pm... what students are going to go to that???
3 - He got people ringing and complaining at him for a problem the idiot at his work caused and then left. I seriously don't understand how that guy hasn't been fired yet!

So, not surprisingly, he was pretty gutted. But, I made him Ham-Pan sandwiches, beer and he cheered himself up with Batman.

Nothing particularly bad on my side, just sheer panic at this piece of work I have to do, I only have 3 weeks and although I'm really happy I have this contract (Whoop whoop <- see!) I am also scared about getting it done the way they want. O_o

Training wise, I ignored the aching in my thighs and backside and did some cardio from wexer.com. Then went on and did some kicks. I'm so stiff! I really wish I hadn't gotten ill, not that anyone ever really wants to get ill lol but still, it was inconvenient!

Managed some yoga this morning and am going to do some more cardio tonight. I have planned each of my days so that I have 2 hours to train and get a shower etc. Some people may ask how I can justify that much time for training when I'm so busy but for me it's not an option. If I'm well enough to train, I have to train, otherwise I become this miserable, tired, achey mess!
Ok... so a more miserable, tired, achey mess ;-)

Exercise is my Prozac! Cheeeeese! :-P

Current Mood: busy

So, I have been ill over the last few weeks which has meant that I haven't really been able to do much training.

Not Good!

Anyway, I am much better now and started back on the training wagon yesterday. Managed a session of yoga and one of cardio. The last few weeks off have set me back a bit but I guess that just means I need to be more focused over the next few weeks.

I've been given a pretty big contract too which is awesome! Though it's on a serious deadline so these next few weeks are going to be somewhat manic. I'm going to have to literally plan every hour in my day for at least the next 3 weeks. Don't get me wrong, I'm really happy about getting it! I know it can be done and I love being busy rather than doing nothing!

Also, got my espresso machine on the weekend :D it's aces! I need to watch my coffee intake though! Tastes so gooood! :P

Right, back to work!

Current Mood: determined

Not feeling as emotional today, though am still feeling like I have a block on my motivation to do anything.
Didn't go for a run this morning but am going training at Eastburn tonight.

I am aching in my back and my hips but not badly, think it's more to do with sitting in my chair all day than anything else!

Do feel very tired though and still generally stiff.

Did the 45 min kick'n Circuit in the evening, it was hard. I found the balance bits difficult as I couldn't get my legs or arms very high!

Also did 100 kicks, 50 each leg, in 4mins 11 seconds. Better than yesterdays time of 5mins 13 seconds o_O

So, today is day one of the Transformation in 10 competition for Wexer.
I have 10 weeks before the end of the contest and ten weeks until Thailand...
Assuming I can afford to go to Thailand!
Things have been weird recently. I always knew that running my own business would be hard work but never realised it would be kind of lonely too. That sounds so pathetic but there you go lol.
I have restarted my blog to keep a record of my progress over these next ten weeks and yet I start moaning about day to day life. Typical!

Anyway! Day one...
I went for a run this morning. Just down to the bridge by Tescos and back again. Stopped and walked for a bit on the way back as I wanted to take a picture of the Heron sat on a post, then I couldnt get my iphone to play the song I wanted. How "Play 'Hit the Floor' " sounds like "Call Mike Raddings" I'll never know! Anyway, I did it in about 15 minutes which isnt too bad.
My calves hurt though (again) - not so good!

I've also just done the neck and shoulders exercise from wexer which was good, though made me realise how stiff my neck and shoulders are!

I had a bagel (which I made myself) for breakfast and am about to have the rest of the Chinese food from last night. Not exactly diet material but if I'm not honest on here about it then what's the point! We have one day a week where we eat what we like but with Chinese food it always spills over to the next day! I have to remind myself that these next few weeks aren't about getting skinny, they are about getting fit. That's what I'm going to need when I go to Thailand!

Tonight, I'm going to see how long it takes me to do 50 kicks on each leg with Mark... Then what ever the time, I'll look to beat it next week.

Feeling quite optimistic about the weeks ahead. Hope I can keep it up!

Well, it has been a bit of a while eh?! This should be the point where I start to write a big long paragraph about all the exiting things I've been up to like crossing the amazon rainforest and swimming with sharks but, well, I haven't done anything like that. In fact I have been pretty damn boring!

Just had a look at my last post back in August 07, ahh so full of optimism! Lmao!
Well, my job isn't all it's cracked up to be, in fact it's pretty sucky and I'm spending a fair bit of time trying to update my portfolio so I can get a job in the cgi world (fingers crossed!). Although, the team I'm in at the moment is good but I'm leaving it in 2 weeks :-(

We had a lovely holiday in Fuertaventure back in Dec, it was so good to get to spend some stress/worry free time with Jawdy! Wish we were there now!!

Had my (hopefully) last op on my knee and am working hard at the gym and physio to get back to full strength. Want to start Muay Thai in the summer if possible!

Hmm what else... oh I'm a godmother :-D to little Martha, my sister's daughter, she's adorable!

I'm in lots of debt, again!! Figures!

I wanna get another tattoo but am thinking very seriously about it... *serious face*

I think that's about it for now, just a quickie ;-)

I'll probably think of more as soon as I get back to Maya!

Current Mood: awake

Real life is pretty tiring! I'm going from nought to serious project manager in 2 years and can't stop to admire the view!
But I always liked the fast rides and this is no exception. Am pretty excited about the coming months, money and hopefully the achievement.
Got to get used to actually working for a living though! Not a big fan of mornings!
However, my colleagues at the moment (and for the next 6 weeks) are nice and very relaxed, my work load is challenging but achievable and my job title ROCKS! :D
I'm already helping on a project and have got to go to meetings and meet with people, discuss things, generally seem important and clever as well as actually doing some work lol.
I think its gonna be fun though.

Current Mood: but smiling